Saturday, August 16, 2008

Going Over the Past

On a whim, I decided to read over my past blogs.

Who wrote those? That wasn't me, was it?

Where did my fiery longing for a loving heart towards God go? Where is the understanding I thought was planted inside me? Why do I feel apathy where I should feel trust? Am I any better than my coworker in my heart - I, who throw mud in Christ's face? Where am I? Where are His arms?

God, bring back the love. Show me your understanding. Light me on fire again - but not for my glory. Make me who You want me to be. And if this is the breaking process............. bring it on.
And please - hurry. I don't know how long I'll last.

Don't worry - I'm not losing it. But I do need all the prayer I can get. For me and my family. Thanks ahead of time.

And sorry for the "me" centeredness of this post. I hope to be back in style soon. :)

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